I just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year both in English and Croatian...so there was the English...and here is the Croatian:

So here it is! The last day of exams. Hopefully in about 24 hours, I will have left (or will be leaving) for Lansing! YAAAAAAAY!

So I took my child psychology exam today. It started at 9:30 and ran till 11:35. I got the 93-question, non-cumulative, 14-extra-credit-ridden final done in about 50 minutes. Yeah, I studied my arse off for it, and there I was....done in 50 minutes! I was impressed. Oh! and I got that evil, long paper back today, too. I did WAYYYYY better than I thought on it! I thought I had gotten a C, but I got a B+! Yay me! A 90%...and my teacher said she was impressed. Dude, I put that paper together at the almost last possible second. Wow. I'm shocked (and amazed).

All I have left is my history final, and that starts at 12:30 and supposedly runs until 2:25. Um, yeah, I'll probably be out of there around 1:30. That's another non-cumulative final. I doubt that my professor will make the test longer than usual...though, I guess it is possible. I can't wait to get this done and over with! That means freedom (for about.....five weeks....then comes my trig class).

I'm gonna go grab some dinner with Tboz tonight, but who knows where (or when). I figured that since the builder is showing our awesome house to some potential buyers in the development, I ought to go do something fun and relaxing. I'll freak out and clean my room like crazy today and then go chill at dinner. I seem to be freaking out a bit more than usual - must be stress. Oh, well, it'll all be over soon!

In the meantime, I've been listening to a lot of the Weepies lately. Their new CD is awesome! I've really grown to like them an awful lot. They're so relaxing and easy to listen to when studying.

I am in such a great mood! Wow, I'm surprised. I woke up this morning and was excited to get this stuff done. Now I just can't wait to be done with my day.

Ooh, and it's my neighbor's birthday! Yay for her (or boo, I'm sure she's going to crack a joke about getting old)! She and her husband (and two boys - Frankie is four, and Gregie is two - they're so CUTE!) have been nothing but awesome. In fact, we're apparently going to build a path between our two houses. And we've got our future neighbors from across the street and neighbors from the middle of the cul-de-sac hanging out with us a lot. It's so nice to have neighbors like this again! Yay!

Anyway, I'd better go and get my notecard done so I can kick ass on my history exam. I'm out!

I'M HOME!!!

Okay, so I saw this very familiar face at the bus stop outside of the Union today, and I know that he's from Ohio, and I'd swear we graduated together. I do believe his name is Allan, and I know that I know him from high school. It's really aggravating to me that I can't remember his last name, and it's driving me crazy! It's really unbelievable, too, because I saw him do a double take. I know I did one, so yeah, I really recognized him, and Allan is the name that registered in my head. Someone from NDCL please help me out here!!! I'm going to go insane if I don't find out who that was. Of course, I may pop by the bus stop at about 12:20 or so next Monday to see if he's there again. I know I graduated with him, or at least in the same year, and I seem to remember him being a transfer, possibly from Mentor.

If any of you need a decription, he's at least 6', blone-ish hair, blue eyes (I think, if memory serves).

Someone please help me out here; I'm driving myself crazy trying to figure out who it is!

I've been listening to a lot of mainstream techno lately. The two groups I have really been focusing on are Kaskade and Iio. Their music is so seductive. If I close my eyes, it almost feels like I'm in a trance or even somewhere else. It's like this movie is playing in my head. This music is absolutely unbelievable. These people have so much talent, and it's just so incredible to feel so inspired by this music. I mean, my writing is at an all time high. I've never been able to pull so many thoughts out and put them together at once. It's mind boggling.

This is the type of music that really makes me wand to dj on the side. Sadly, though, I have no money for equipment, and I have no mode of transportation here. If I did have the equipment, it's not like you could really take it on the bus. Believe me, if I had the money and more knowledge on the subject, which I really wish I did, I think I'd be lost in the music world much more than I am now.

In case some of you don't know, I am a music whore. I am open to listen to all kinds of different music, so if anyone has any suggestions, please comment here or im me to let me know. I'd love to dive deeper into the musical world.

I've loved music my entire life because it's always been there, and, I know it's a bit early to look so far ahead, but I really want it to be incredibly present in my children's lives. Music has helped me become more of a well-rounded, cultured person. Seriously. When you really open up to music, you're opening a sort of Pandora's box. You never know what you may come across.

I suppose you could call music my obsession. I almost always have my iPod on me or something. Whenever I'm at my laptop, I always have music playing. It's jus one thing can become such a big part of someone's life.

Music is my escape. It takes me to so many different places. Speaking of escape, I must go and write before I explode. I'm out.

My exam today was pretty tough. I know I have problems that are guaranteed to be right. But once I got to the exam, even with my positive attitude, I freaked out. I didn't freak in every sense of the word; I just drew a blank. Then, when I got in the car to come home after working for damn near four hours on that exam, I kept having to swallow away tears so I could drive. My eyes would water, I'd take a deep breath, the tears would go away. I have to say, though, that I'm very glad I was driving the stick today. Otherwise, I think I'd have cried the entire way home (a whopping ten minutes, whoo). All in all, I can walk away saying that I did my best. I studied my ass off this week and practically denied my self a life for about three to four weeks. I think I did very well when it comes down to the wire. I prepared, and I went in and did my best. That's all I could hope for. But that's somewhat of a depressing subject, so I'll move on.

I leave to return to Purdue a week from tomorrow. It's scary how fast this summer went, but, in a way, it seems like parts of it went on forever. I miss Purdue a lot, but I miss my friends the most. I can't wait to go back and be able to hang out with them again. We really did have a lot of fun last year. I hope this year will bring more fun, even though I won't have much of a life. I know that as long as I take some personal time I should be fine.

I made some changes to the good old lj. The titles are from "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol. I wouldn't be so addicted to them if it weren't for Mike. Now I've got my mom hooked on them. She loves that song. I think it's her favorite song right now. I listen to that song a lot when I'm feeling down. It's hard to describe how it makes me feel. Perhaps at the right time I'll give it a try.

I'm exhausted. I think it's time for me to get to bed.

Today was a rather big day. My dad and I got the house ready for the possibility or bringing home a new puppy. Well, we did! My parents went to visit him yesterday and fell in love instantly. My dad took me to see him today, and the same happened to me. His name is Buddy. He is a one-year old male English Labrador Retriever. He's just the sweetest thing. We rescued him. He had been abused as a puppy and put in a pound, but there was an organization that was wonderful enough to get him out of the pound and place him with foster parents. My dad found these people online and had originally inquired about another dog, but by the time he had, she had already been adopted. The foster parents suggested Buddy. The rest is pretty much history.

On the drive home, he didn't get sick in the car at all. He really seemed to enjoy it. He just sat there for most of the trip back from Bedford and looked out the back windows. He seemed pretty hesitant once we got home, but he explored and relaxed. He seems to have attached himself to me at the hip. I have been up here since about 9:00, and he has rarely left my side. Right now he's asleep at the foot of my bed.

He enjoys attention, but it takes him awhile to warm up to guys. He seems to be okay with girls. He loves his tummy rubbed. He just flops on his back and lets you go at it. He's very sweet, but he doesn't lick. He'll just nose you. Buddy will get close to my face and stick his nose on my cheek or nose as if to say hi. Here's a pic of him and me from earlier this evening.

Today was just a bad day. I had to put my dog down this morning. There were a lot of tears shed over it, too. However, the good thing about all of this is that Buttons isn't suffering anymore, and that makes me feel a lot better. In the end it was all up and down, and I just couldn't deal with it. Now it's hard to believe it's all over, but it is. My parents and I gave her a good home after rescuing her from the APL, and just knowing and remembering that has done a lot for me.

The pic I have up now was taken this morning in case you were curious (see end of entry). I'm glad I was able to hug her and cuddle her this morning. I'm also very grateful for the time I had left, especially since it seemed as though she waited for me to come home.

It's hard to get used to a house without a dog. I almost didn't go in the house when we came back from the vet. I had to, though, and I did. It hurts, but it'll heal with time.

Thanks to all of you who've offerred kind words. It really means a lot to me.

I think I'm going to run off to bed now. Goodnight.

It's already finals week. I can't believe it. It feels like I just moved in here the other day. It's so hard for me to grasp that a year has already gone by. I mean, at this time last year I was so excited to move onto the Purdue campus. I had never expected some of these things to happen. I'm surprised at where I am right now, and not just academically. I've changed a lot, some ways for the better and others for the worse, which will be fixed. I'm a work in progress, and this year has just shown me how true that is.

This summer is going to be weird. I'll be seeing the same people every day, but they'll be different people. I'm welcoming the change, honestly. It'll be really nice to wake up in my own bed again and in a room where I don't have to worry about waking someone up. My whole life won't be in that room, either, but it'll all be in that house.

At the same time it's also hard to fathom that next year I'll be in an apartment with an amazing roommate and taking even harder classes. But the thing of that is that we'll have our own kitchen and bathroom, and we'll have more than enough room for people to visit, which will be really nice. And Robin lives relatively close to campus, so we can always go back over to her house just to spend a weekend off campus. That'll be nice.

I really messed up this semester, if anyone was wondering. I will indeed be on academic probation, but I'm taking classes at home over the summer. I've been told that those will help, along with the rule my parents set for me. I have to have a 2.9 minimum gpa next semester in order to stay. It's possible for me, too. I may not have much free time next year because I'll be studying and reviewing, but at least I'll reach my goal that way. I plan on graduating from Purdue with a really nice gpa.

I'm learning how to study gradually now. You'd think I'd already know from high school, but it's completely different. The material is harder, and you need to learn how to study along side your current classes. It helps a lot. It would've helped me had I done it more this semester.

Well, I'm going to go take my calc final. After that, the list goes like this: Tues - Programming 10:20-12:20 + Cathryn moves out; Wed - work 9:30-2:00, study for chemistry; Thurs - Study for chem, 11:30 Mass with Robin, work 1:45-5:45, dinner, chem exam 7:00-9:00; Friday - 8:15 checkout, breakfast, leave for home. What a relief.

I'm out.

It's another gorgeous day here, and it makes me uber happy. Well, that's not the only thing. Work wasn't as busy as it usually is (there wasn't another Intro to Purdue), and I got to kinda joke around a bit more than usual. I had lab checkout today, and I was done in about a half hour. And finally, I get to go flying today!

No, I'm not flying the plane, but my friend Ryo is (he's got his pilot's license). I unfortunately don't have sun glasses, so I'm hoping that I don't end up being too blind coming off the plane because it is BRIGHT. I'm just so stoked; I haven't been up in a small plane since sophomore year. I'm a bit nervous because I'm not sure if he goes up on his own or with an instructor, and the kid's younger than me. We'll just have to see.

Yesterday sucked. It was just me; Robin didn't get back till today. It was raining/thundering most of the day, which sometimes makes me uncomfortable when I'm alone. I spent a good part of the day on the phone with my mom just talking. I was quite depressed for some reason, and I think it was because I was away from my family on Easter for the first time ever. Easter is a rather big holiday to my family (it's second to Christmas), and to be away from them was really sad and made me quite homesick.

But today makes up for it. I'm half tempted to sit on the couch here, which is right in front of the windows where the sun is just pouring in, and possibly nap. However, I am going up soon, so I'm not sure if I'm going to or not. It depends. I've still gotta eat and then run over to Stewart at like 9:15 for my final com meeting. Anyone wanna walk me there? That's pretty late at night for a com meeting, but it was the best time we all had.

Well, I'm out; I'm eating with Steph around 5. Later! XD